Iris- Goo goo dolls

And I’d give up forever to touch you
‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
When sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t wanna miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Zedd-Clarity

“Clarity”
Zedd-(feat. Foxes)

High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash ’cause we both know how this ends
A clock ticks ’til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again

‘Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

(Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey)

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense
Don’t speak as I try to leave ’cause we both know what we’ll choose
If you pull then I’ll push too deep and I’ll fall right back to you

‘Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

(Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey)

Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

Cipher-The Floacist

Cipher-The Floacist

This Goddess is blowing my mind!!!! Just AMAZING

Cipher
Open like hungry lips
Or seductive hips
The passage is clear for satisfaction
Outstretched prayers
Falling on introspective ears
Hearts beat to communicate rhythm
The flow needed for building
Not necessary
But productive
Addicted to the chemicals released when hyper active
Throwing psychological temper tantrums
Hurting yourself
Now’s a good time to drop all defenses
Pick updated modules for download
Pimp your ride
Inside this cipher
Release the pressure of being know
By knowing yourself
No bullet to dodge
If no weapon is fired
We feel what we know
Watch the translation
Phantom legacy
Paranoid
Like one would be flattered by the attention
Meditating on a battle
Structure the dream scope
Dreamscape
Erase the information that’s got it’s hold on you
Reboot
Reboot
Enter cipher
With the purpose to embellish
Revolve
Evolve
And replenish
Something like a phenomenon
Unstoppable like optimism
Unshakable like time
Never diminished
Just revised
Every single side telling lies
In the eye of the beholder
Every story is true
Felt
Undertsood
Bask in the cipher
Where word lets loose
Too tame when housebound
The voice must be let out
To gallop, canter and graze
One must exercise or go lame
My heart cries for the mind where the breeze doesn’t blow
Where the sun doesn’t shine
If One has nowhere to express as divine
My heart would cry for you
For without my cipher
I know not what I would do

© Natalie “Floacist” Stewart

Natalie “Floacist” Stewart – Cipher

MAMI LOVES YOU…

If no one ever told you this
I’m telling you right now
You’re so perfect
And you’re worth it
Mami birthed you with a vow
You’re so special
No doubt, you’re going to change the world
Do it, don’t just prove it
Be careful with your spells
Always use your mind
Physical’s a back up
Never get too proud when you have to use a smack up
You’re owed nothing, but deserve everything
Never measure life by the things you can’t bring
Never measure partners by the fears of your heart
Always deal with truth
Right from the start
Don’t just do what feels easy
Do what feels right
Do things that won’t wake you in the middle of the night
So you can walk like a King
Think like a God
Know that you’re seed are the light of your rod
Know what you have,
Know what you give
Mami places blessings on the life that you live.If no one ever told you this
I’m telling you right now
You’re so perfect
And you’re worth it
Mami birthed you with a vow
You’re so special
No doubt, you’re going to change the world
Do it, don’t just prove it
Be careful with your spells
Always use your mind
Never just for games
Or you’ll type cast yourself with the rolls that you play
You’re owed nothing, but deserve everything
Never measure life by the things you can’t bring
Never measure partners by the fears of your heart
Always deal with truth
Right from the start
Don’t just settle for those standards, that keep you feeling stressed
Ability to cope is a gift, not a test
So you can walk like a Queen
Think like a Goddess
Know that we all get on Earth through these bodies
Know what you have,
Know what you give
Mami places blessings on the life that you live.
© The Floacist

Love Quotes :)

“Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with heart and soul, there is no such thing as separation.” ~ Rumi

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“In all the world, there is no heart for me like yours. In all the world, there is no love for you like mine.” ~ Maya Angelou

“This is the ultimate end of man, to find the one which is in him; which is his truth, which is his soul; the key with which he opens the gate of the spiritual life, the heavenly kingdom.” ~ Rabindranath Tagore

“Only the soul knows what love is.” ~ Rumi

“Miracles come in moments. Be ready and willing.” ~ Dr. Wayne Dyer

“And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one’s dreams would have no meaning.” ~ Paulo Coelho

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‘And your eyes look like coming home…’

‎”I have no fear of losing you, for you aren’t an object of my property, or anyone else’s. I love you as you are, without attachment, without fears, without conditions, without egoism, trying not to absorb you. I love you freely because I love your freedom, as well as mine.”
― Anthony de Mello

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.”
― Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
― Lao Tzu
“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.”
― John Lennon

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“This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

“And when her lips met mine, I knew that I could live to be a hundred and visit every country in the world, but nothing would ever compare to that single moment when I first kissed the girl of my dreams and knew that my love would last forever.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
― Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones
“To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.”
― Oscar Wilde, An Ideal Husband

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Eat Pray Love

The last few days numerous signs have popped up in my life, only solidifying what I’ve been feeling and thinking about the last few months.

And after watching the movie Eat Pray Love, it only really sank in. I feel like a zombie, I am going through this life like a zombie pretty much. When I wake up in the morning, there’s nothing that I truly feel passionate about or that I want to do. This truly scares me because this is not how I want to be as a person. The thing that I always have known about me is that I always had a passion for something in my life. I’ve realized that I am a very intense person and I need intensity in my life just as much as I need oxygen.

The movie Eat Pray Love is most likely one of the only movies who made a big impact on me, and I was very opposed to watching it at first because I just deemed a chick flick and I also don’t care for Julia Roberts at all. However, in this movie it addressed nearly everything that I am struggling with. Some people just aren’t born to be stay at home wives/husbands and to have their weekends revolve around picking out home appliances. Some people need to have the experience of being able to marvel at something, to be in awe of what your eyes are feeding you. I am one of those people and some days I feel like my flame has been extinguished before it even had a chance to burn the brightest.

This is nothing against my love for my girlfriend because she makes me very happy but I refuse to be defined by a romantic relationship because there is more to me than being somebody’s spouse. I need to be me and I am very much in search of my ‘word’.  You would think that these things become easier once you become older, but the opposite is true. You just start feeling it push more and more on your mind and heart, the uncanny feeling that there is something is ‘missing’  from your life.

Now I’ve said on here before that I had found that feeling in someone else. I did, but this is not the lesson I was supposed to draw from this. She was only supposed to be the catalyst, to show me the way. The true voyage begun the moment she left, to be able to find it in myself and only myself. To find God in myself as me, to so adequately quote Liz in Eat Pray Love.

The movie is broken down in 3 parts.

Eat: this is the start of Liz’ journey and in my own interpretation stands for feeding your soul with what it needs. In Liz’ case this is very literally GREAT food while being in beautiful surroundings. Learning to not feel guilty for experiencing true pleasure. This lays the foundation for what happens next for her, and gives her a new found appreciation of life.

Pray: Liz definitely struggles with finding her mindfulness and quietness in her search for God and forgiveness, most likely because this part is where she has to do the most work and she has no idea how to let go of the control, of the restrictions she’s put on herself.  This is the part of the journey where she is very clearly shown a mirror and is confronted with herself. Here again, she finds kindred spirits who show her that she is nowhere near the only one who struggles with forgiving herself and finding true love for her own soul. At least, this is my interpretation and if you have a different one, please feel free to share it.

Love: Liz reaches her final destination, in more ways than one. She lastly goes to Bali, Indonesia and this is where she learns to implement the things she has learned so far from her travels and she believes that she has found the perfect balance between everything. Little does she know that she’s not done learning yet. She finds love again, this time in a true form with a person who is strikingly similar to herself. But she is now afraid to lose that newly found balance and doesn’t want to lose herself in yet another romantic relationship because she feels that all her work will have been done for nothing. She doesn’t realize that all the work she has done, was necessary in order to prepare her for true love, for both herself and her partner. To quite from the book and movie : “To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced
life.”  And: “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”

Needless to say this movie made a very deep impact on me, and I am not afraid to say I cried when Elizabeth realized powerful things about herself as it was like having my own face shoved into my own issues. I have not yet read the book and I am planning on running out and finding it today because I have a feeling that the book has even more to show and tell me. What I will do with all this, is still a mystery to me but it is a start..a start of the journey into myself. A journey for my higher self who is eternally at peace.

I apologize to myself first and foremost for putting my soul through such painful ordeals, but I realize that this is all a part of it. We HAVE to experience these things in order to be able to appreciate life and find ourselves. I will no longer use another person to fulfill my needs or make them responsible for my happiness. Only I can and should do that. Only I should have that power. Solely me.

I forgive myself for not trusting myself enough and deeming myself worthy for self-love. In the end nobody can tell you what spirituality truly is, YOU have to find out through obstacles and experiences what rings true to you. So don’t ever think you are wasting time, it’s all a part of the process ultimately.

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